So after everything's that has happened now, i really do always question myself now..
Is this even a relationship?
You don't really care for me or anything, never talk to me, never initiate anything.
It's sad.
It seems my level of importance to you is really low compared to others, as shown during course enrollments. I didn't enroll and waited... because i wanted to see which course you're going to do, and in case you do optom... i would choose the same time. But it just broke my heart when i found out you already enrolled and chose class times by yourself without telling me... eventhough you know i do the exact same course at the same uni. It shattered me further when i found out you told someone else to copy your timetable and telling them to not tell anybody. And then there was me... i felt abandoned. As though i don't really mean anything to you.
After that and everything else that you do, i really question everything.
Is this one sided?
Do you even like me? (cause it really doesn't seem like it...)
Do you even think of me ever?

seriously, i try my best... i really do try. But this is out of my hands, everything is really up to you, idk what to do anymore. I tend to not initiate or talk to you now... just hoping you'd talk to me or start something... so i can feel as though you do care, and it isn't one sided.
It sucks cause i like you alot, and i want things to work out well, but it seems like you dont like me at all...
I feel fked up cause i really can't do anything.
I'm so sick of this shit. (but really, if i feel this way... i'll only just make you feel bad, so i'll be my normal self)


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But it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
looking down at the sky
don't let me fall...
I was shooting for stars
on a Saturday night
They say what goes up
must come down
But don't let me fall...
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