The continue of the story b4.
same rules apply.
At first he was always calling me a stalker, but he turned out to be a pretty cool guy. We could talk for ages, about the most randomnest things, but this only happened sometimes. *sigh. He would always tease me, and say the weirdest things. I was falling for him too quick, I couldn’t help it.. I can’t do this.. not yet..I have to know if he’s worth it.. I can’t risk going through it all again, just to end up in a dead end.. yes.. I need to know if he’s worth it..
Sunday. I love Sundays. Every time I saw him my mind would go blank. If he talked to me, I would always end up saying something really stupid. Geebus.. What was wrong with me? I hate how he made me feel so vulnerable, but at the same time I just couldn’t get enough of him. I needed to take it to the next level. Gosh I sound so desperate. >”< . For those 2hrs, my mind would always be searching for an opportunity just to talk to him. There were many, but I didn’t have the courage to do it. Ugh! I felt like a wuss. Why couldn’t I just go up to him, smile, say something, and hopefully he will give me that dopey smile of his in return… it was that easy!!
Eventually an opportunity came.. the girls had to move to the back to sit, where all the guys were.. this gave us the chance to.. umm “mingle” with the guys. Ruby and I had gotten to know the guys pretty well. Well, at least we thought we did. :S . The other girls seemed uncomfortable around them, while me and Ruby could just be ourselves. Amongst the guys, was Robert. He was “tank” according to Ruby. Robert wasn’t the typical guy, he was kinda like a “rebellious junkie” as ruby calls it. He smokes + drinks & probably takes drugs as well, but deep down he was a softie!! ;D
I had gotten to know Andrew a lot, and I knew he was falling for me or was he..? , either way I just couldn’t tell him that I was falling for him. I had to know if he’s worth it… “worth it”.. those two words mean so much, what if he turned out to be some fag who drinks + smokes ? what if he was a rebel that doesn’t give a shit about girls? What if he’s gay? What if .. what if.. so many questions and no answers. I just had to be careful..
To be continued ........
